WAKING UP SOBER…
…many days in a row now, nearly a month even, feels surprisingly and refreshingly wonderful. Moments of boredom or frustration tantalize with the old story of “just a few won’t hurt”, then I bring to mind the many events, too many to name, that have begun this journey of sobriety. I sometimes literally shake it off, out of my head, then distract myself with something positive, and am ultimately happy that I have forgone yet another craving/temptation.
Waking up sober…
…means waking up to a full memory of the night’s events, perhaps UNevents, even still, so nice. For a while now, I’ve been choosing stability and tranquil over unpredictable craziness, so it only makes sense that sobriety would eventually follow suit. What a wonderful feeling to know that I have pissed no one off in some drunken tantrum, and the friends I have today will be there tomorrow. To recall that I have not used words to hurt those I truly care for… to know I have disrespected no one, including myself.
Waking up sober…
…is still a daily choice… a process started without any guarantees or foresight into probable success. What I keep in the forefront of my mind is all the above positive, which proves to reinforce my steps and guide me, day in and day out. Knowing that I set forth on this path not alone steadies me when I feel shaken… Thanks are to God and those who have had faith enough to see me through the rough spots, and who can now enjoy the fruits of their labors of love.
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I want you to know that, despite everything, you are still my friend. No matter what has happened, no matter how much time has passed, no matter how things might have ended, I still care. Maybe we don't talk anymore but I want you to know that I still love you. I've cried for you, and I've worried. I hope that the positive vibes I fervently sent your way have helped somehow. Maybe it doesn't matter, but I still think positively on your behalf. Maybe I don't know how you're doing, or what you're been up to. I send my best wishes your way, just in case.
Congrats on the sobriety, keep up the good work. You can do it, you are a very strong woman. Don't ever forget that. Take care of yourself.
Love and miss you much, Chris. So you know, I'm back home in Virginia, and thriving. My # is the same, if you want to call/text.
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