Even Keel

I've been on a little bit of an even keel here of late... nothing too exciting nor disturbing... just livin'. I'm really okay with this, although, I admit, it's sometimes a bit of a drag. Mostly, going to work, hours on end, trying to make a quota, then sleeping little, and doing it all over again.

I got scared a few days ago however, after working almost 40 hours in three days, I felt as if my ankle was broken, literally, it felt like it did when I broke it. I put some arnica cream on it to reduce the swelling, still, when I tried to stand to go to the bathroom, I found I had to crawl, not even the assistance of my cane helped me w/that short jaunt.

I worry... am I just pushing to hard now, putting my body to the grindstone to make cash for today, and then tomorrow, I may pay with my vitality.

I try not to think about it, thus attract this fate, still, I'm exhausted.

I'm trying to make enough money to pay off all these legal debts that linger about... I go to Virginia in a few weeks, and besides the time off work, I have court costs and lawyer fees... I will be so happy and free to have this finally behind me.

Although, I will return, only to go to court here a few short weeks later.... I am so done w/that lifestyle, the one that lands me in a heap of a mess with little recollection of how I even got there.

Perhaps why I am thankful to have a new lovely lady in my life... sure, there are some issues, some bigger than others, still, I know that she is there for me in a way I haven't in some time. Things may seem boring, become even keel for a while, yet, there is constance, and I'm choosing that over sporadic crazyness right now.